17 July 2016 Posted in Mind & Body
To think is easy.
To act is hard.
But the hardest thing in the world is to act in accordance with your thinking.
(Johann Wolfgang von Goethe)
When I was a youngster, I did what I thought sometimes. I chose schools I wanted to stay at. I chose the subjects (i.e. Arts classes, Science Classes) at schools and the field of career. However, I had stayed in a job which I was craving to quit for years because at the beginning I saw it as a challenge and eventually I failed to find another job. In spiritual development, it is importance to act in accordance with our thinking all the time. Otherwise, it harms our soul.
Seven Deadly Sins are Pride, Envy, Wrath, Sloth, Greed, Gluttony and Lust.
These desires lead to acting not in accordance with your thinking. It looks like it is something that he or she wants and competes for getting it. Why are they causing an action which is not in accordance with your thinking?
Lust, for example, can be a kind of sexual desire. People who go for one night stands are the expressions of their sexual desire. I have read a famous magazine interviewing three young guys who had tried one night stands to state their feelings and reasons of their one night stands experiences.
One of them, guy Mr. A, said that he had numbers of one night stands but eventually he found himself feeling bored doing the same thing again and again. Then, he had a committed relationship so he had stopped looking for one night stands.
Another guy Mr. B, said that he tried to get many one night stands and he was not interested in the life of a committed relationship at all. From my point of view, he wanted freedom and satisfaction of constant sexual desire.
Both guys were attracted by lust and sexual desire. They seemed to act what they thought by involving in one night stands. When they had numerous one night stands, was their true desire totally be fulfilled? Did their true selves get what they want?
Mr. A observed himself internally and searched what he really needed in a relationship. He was searching from within and decided to build a committed relationship with a girl. That is getting closer to expression of this true self.
Mr. B was looking externally which was meeting one night stand partners to fulfill his sexual desire. He had not been reviewing his mind and discovering his real wants. He still tended to keep the life of having many one night stands.
Mr. A looked within and had found Love. This action works towards the thinking of his true self. Before that, he was confused by lust and was not behaving what his true self needed.
Mr. B searched outside of his mind and had found sexual partners. He was obsessive with lust and confused by his ego. He seemed to be satisfied but will he feel the same after his 80th birthday? It is a matter of time to be inspired by his true self. I am sure that when the time is right, he will be inspired.
In past, I was confused by Envy and Wrath. At schools, I was envious when I knew someone who was rich, smart and had a lot of friends. These were traits I did not have. When I was working in different workplaces, I had difficult relationships with colleagues at whom I was mad. Therefore, I was unhappy and I was always not satisfied with my life. When my wrath reached the peak, my health was deteriorating.
In that period, I seemed to be doing what I was thinking but actually I was not. I did not truly know what I wanted to do in my life. I chose to study Purchasing but I did not like this subject and I stopped working in purchasing field for years. I disliked all jobs I had chosen but I kept looking for jobs and working. I did not express my true self properly but I kept acting for my ego or other’s expectations. Therefore, actually, I did not do things in according with my thinking. Envy and Wrath have gone after I have learnt to practise Patience, Temperance and Kindness. Then, my soul and my body have started being healed. After my soul has been lightened up, I am learning to practise Charity and Humility. At the same time, I am finding out who I am and try my best to keep acting in accordance with my thinking. That is the time my life is being improved gradually.
We are born to be kind person. When we are growing up, we are easily be deluded by desire. When the time is right, anyone will see the true nature of oneself and express their true selves in accordance with their thinking.
Note: Chasity, Temperance, Charity, Dillgence, Patience, Kindness, Humility are Seven Christian Virtues.